Negative 8 week year old

PHYSICALLY-
Blood Pressure is normal!
Heart Beat sound GREAT!
His bum is at the top and he's heading south!
I should only gain 5 more lbs.
Otherwise, my wieght is great!
I am energetic and active.
My feet look a little swollen today (I can tell because my ankles disappeared).
I wanted to have this baby already but after doing some reading on early babies and premies, I have decided it is best to let him be healthy and ready. The way my doctor put it we like our steaks medium or medium well but baby boys are much better if when they are well done. Therefore, he needs to cook a little longer. He said, "If your baby is only 5 days late he'll be born in May. I reassured him my baby is coming early!" He said, "that's what the lady next door said". I have a 1 out of 5 chance! But like I said, I'll be ok until he's well done!!

MENTALLY/EMOTIONALLY-
I feel guilty, like I have done something wrong or wronged someone.
I feel bossy and unorganized.
I feel uncared about, but selfish because I feel that way.
I feel drained and sick of yelling.
My mind feels full and empty at the same time.
I am worried and I know worrying just wastes time but I don't know what I am worried about.
I feel annoying and bothersome.
I feel incomplete and unhelpful
I feel late and off-task.
I feel UNPREPARED and INCOMPLETE.
I feel wide awake and exhausted....