Something Always Hurts!

My sweet husband wants for the day where I don't complain about something hurting. I always complain, because like every human something is always wrong with me. Adam would tell me, Heavenly Father gives you these sad things to deal with so you can figure out how to happy with them. I believe Heavenly Father has a plan of happiness. I can overcome these ailments and live a happy life without them, I need direction to do so.

Since I was in high school, I learned that if I wanted to get rid of my autoimmune disease I had to get surgery, but that wasn't a long term. I found a link of someone who got over it because she ate clean. She didn't eat dairy, meats, sugars, and caffeine. She claimed that it went away and didn't come back. For 10 years I've known this and when I'm crying because I can't sit down, or walk because my raw flesh is being exposed I think about it. However,  I live with it every day, and learned how to hide it and maintain it because I could never go without those things. That's just not good for me. Even since then, I knew that living a clean life I could eliminate it, I knew it in my heart but I couldn't dedicate myself. I guess we will see if it is actually true, because I'm sick of being sick! (I promise I will talk about it in the next blog entry, I have been silent for too long).

I want to list today all the things that are hurting my body right now. Not because I want to complain, or worry about them. I just want to list them, so I can see if any of them clear up or disappear after being on new eating habits and exercise. I want to see how long it takes to achieve the healing that I want. If Food is Medicine! :)

Sorry if this grosses you out with TOO MUCH INFORMATION. The body is gross when you gross it up, right! I just need to create  a check list.

TODAY HEAD TO TOE

1. Dandruff, several years
2. Weak Hair, several years
3. Scabby Ear Cannals, several years
4. Eye Allergy, 1 year.
5. Nasal Allergies, 2 months
6. Geographical Toungue
7. Semi- Lock Jaw Symptoms
8. Neck Rash, 1 week
9. Stiff Neck and Shoulders, constant. I'm too fat and top heavy
10. Sharp Pains to Chest, Heart, Lungs, can't breath until it passes. (not today but frequently)
11. Weak Nails
12. Carpul Tunnel
13. Hidradenitis Supperativa, 18 years
14. Knee Pain, 1 year
15. Toe Plantar Wart, 4 years

Those sound like the majors at the moment.
HAPPY HEALING!!

WHY DO I WANT TO EAT CLEAN?

8 years ago I had a Vegetarian roommate, and I guess it was her who sparked the interest for not eating  meat. It was so foreign to me, I thought it was impossible. Then a couple years later I met some Vegan friend in Missouri and became more intuitive asking so many questions. I've made posts about not eating meat, and then I was eating it again. For the past two years I've had several months on Vegan or Vegetarian and then fall off the wagon hard. I was embarrassed to tell people I didn't eat meat, or drink milk. I didn't want to cause controversy or even conversation about my diet. I didn't want a label, so in group situations I would not eat the way I was eating.  I would go weeks without meat, but even one bite of meat, usually in a social situation or pressed by someone else would ruin it all.  The next day I would have meat, then next day and then the next. To the point where all I'd want is meat, then cookies, chips, and junk food. Adam would walk up to me and say what about the Veggies I bought you, you want a salad? And I would turn up my nose and want nothing to do with it.

The last time this happened I realized I was addicted to processed foods. I realized I was wanting the wrong things and I need to fix it quick. With prayer and lots of study  I realized I want to eat Raw Whole Foods diet. I want Heavenly Father's food. I spent some time reading and re-reading the Word of Wisdom, and cross referencing the Old Testament, Moses and Abraham. Learning what I could about food, and what Heavenly Father wanted me to know. I didn't want to do something unpleasing, drastic, and I no longer feel like I am. I would always give the excuse  of needing moderation in all things, and quit eating Vegan just for rancid cheese. I've now realized, I need moderation in all GOOD things. My journey is to find and cherish those good things.  I think focusing my eating on a Low Fat Raw Vegan lifestyle is what will give me the vibrant life I want.  Does this mean, I'll never have cooked foods, or I'll never eat oils or whatever? No, I don't know!! I still believe the Lord has blessed me with so many food options.  I'm not explaining myself anymore to people. I'm not feeling guilty anymore about food and how I eat it. I'm going to try to eat what I feel is right, no matter which way I eat it! I know its a self-mental complex I have to feel the need to explain myself and please others. I hope that too goes away! Finally, I'm doing something to please myself.

Food is Medicine!! 

Here is what I want from eating CLEAN ... 

I want clarity of mind.

I want more patience with my children.

I want to be more tolerable with my family.

I want energy to play with my kids

I want to eliminate my anxiety.

I want greater strength, even in my hands I can't open bottles sometimes.

I want healthy vibrant not very sick pregnancies.

I want my autoimmune disease eliminated.

I want joy and peace.

I want my family to know I'm healthy.

I want to move my body and not have difficulty lifting my own weight. I'm not huge, I've had 3 babies and each one has left me with 10 pounds of unnecessary fat.

I want a slim body, or my natural body to take over

I want the energy and vitality to love my husband better.

I want to maintain my childishness innocence, and feel youthful.

I want to enjoy and delight in God's food.

I want to allow food to be my medicine.

I never want to see a doctor again. 

I want greater knowledge and quicker understanding.

I want to run and not be weary. 

I want to grow my hair long, I've been having so much trouble.

I want to be a greater example of clean living for my family.